"Shoot from the back,
take good aim,
Make sure I'm dead
Bang Bang

'Cause I'm a rat
there's no mistake
Under the bed
where you sleep

Crush the skull
make me tame
Sweep it up
Hide it away"

The Rat by Dead Confederate, great song about reliogon as far as I cna tell but iam not gonna analyze this time but maybe later, on with the sob story!! Heres the YouTube [link] for you guys, or gals, person whatever.


To first start off almost a month ago my mothers boyfriedn Bryan toke me with him to get a job at a local American Eagle Factory, my pudgy worried self wasent to confident that I would get the job thinking it would turn out the way it did last time (Apparently the application came with a timed test no one told me about + I was alone and was kinda pushed into the whole thing, both times) but they had a new guy working at Staff Managment (which is like there reserve/temp program thingy which u gotta go througth before getting employed by them) and I got the job to my suprised but now even more worried self, what came later was signing aggrements and blah blah blah, the monday of the week after I got the job they send me in, alone, barelly anyone I know, to Receiving (You unload truck filled with huge ass boxes of cloths that can weigh like a ton after your second and thrid truck) it eventaully gets to the point where send me a diffrent area to make boxes, probly cause they saw me sitting down a few times (In my defense I say that I as a keyboard weilding surfer of the net I am not use to this, even though I did grow up on a farm(nother story for another day)) after that day I went home and slept (the shift Bryan and I toke was supposed to be the easy one with more ppl laid back, yea right it starts at 4 int he after noon and ends 2:30 in the morning) the next day I wake up with all my joints STIFF as a rock with em almost unable to walk or even life a feather, I apparently pulled alot of msucles last night and I payed for it. After that they said they didnt need me to come in awhile which I was thankful cause I doubt me all knarled and walking slow as hell was going to be any good.

[Interlude: This is only halfway so you may want to go get a drink and come popcorn and get you falming going, I predict intense cursing after this post]

The week after I am still in the smae department makeing boxes, I get sick (still sick btw) with some kind of diariha vomiting bug and take a day half off to recoup and get ready for the next day of work, it goes okay only alot of bathroom breaks. I get my first paycheck and a weekend of seeing friends, movies, and alot less of the toilet. The week after they send me to the same department but diffrent building, this time iam moving tubs in the underwear department (this is vital for wats next cause I will rant about that later) abit harder then making boxes but still fairly okay, they send me back and forth from that department and the one I was at in the other building, the last two things they made me do was make smaller tougher boxes and put panties in clear wrap plastic bags stuff (poly baging I think is what its called idk, but the guys I did it with were very funny(btw purple ones suck the pink/white ones are alot more sexy with all the dots and bows... okay ending that there)).

Now here is where the shit hits the fan, hard, very very hard. Now the day before the polybagging when I was first on making the smaller tougher boxes my little diariha bug came back, with vengence to the point of taking breaks almsot one a hour, the day when I was doing the panty bag thing a manger from Staff management pulled over said I should goto the bath room less and cut down on leaving my work area so much (I will rant jsut let finish this up) I say okay and go back to work and try to hold in my poop for as long as I can (alot of going behind the boxed panties and farting helped alot). Towards the end of the night I go get a drink next to the box maker I was at the previous night, someone I know is there working, Jessica is her name, a hard working athletic girl (had a boyfirend but does that ever stop us guys? didnt think so) I smile and proceed to get my drink, as the water is going down my throat I notice Jessica is laughing, my instincts click on and I turn around to see a guy who also works there trying to sneak up on me (now to refresh I am pretty tired and I can be hella creepy and a deuschbag at the same time) he laughs I laugh Jessica laughs, this is the part with the more charming guy trys to make fun of the lesser guy by making fun of him, ofc my asshole switch is on as soon I notice the situation and turn his joke (dont remeber his joke too tired at the time) into one of him trying to rape me, Jessica snickers I smile he says iam creepy with a slight grin (I cant remember if actually did smirk I was freakin tired) and walked back to work, later at break while talking to Jessica about how we guys at the Panty sacking tabels where told not to talk to her and other workers while we goto get our drinks, I mention the rape joke again as I see the same guy from before as I turn to go back to the department where I was stationed, later on I realize what a stupid joke to say in a group of people and quickly forget about it as I go back to work. The next day manager wants to talk to about somthing, it ends with me being escorted out of the building and being susspended for the day till they can launch a investigation into the said incident (ill ilaborate later) later that day I tell my mother, my sister and my best friend, saving my dad for later, the next day (friday) I call in and eventaully get ahold of the manager and he basiclly says iam fired.


[RANT]

To start off the reason they fired me, which is a guess cause I was to tired and pissed when I called them to ask why is probly cause off my rape joke (main reason he wanted to talk to me before I started work and the smoking gun they used to fire me) and because I havent been working as hard (reason being cause Ive been sick and was still trying to get use to working in a factory(to be honest this I thought I would overcome if I still kept working and giving it my best shot)) Bryan wasnt pissed just disapointed (gave me lecture) moms basicly was like me hella pissed but to tired to do anything except yell at me and make me feel twice as worse then before (on a side note mother lectured me about how Bryan stuck his neck out for me to get the job and yes I did realize that which just added to my frustration about the whole thing) sister and best firend felt sorry for me but also subtelly gave me there opinions which iam thankful for. Now I see this whoel thing as me getting off easy but without some consequences, example being me being fired, now I do think that was alittle over board considering the smoking gun, but the other stuff didnt help and I guess I should kick my own ass for it but come on, coming from riding tractors, herding cattle and babysitting and serius addiction to video games and the internet, iam suprised I didnt quit earlyier which is a big UHRAH for me but is considered trivial to others (a big F U to those people btw), but also on that note they should have atleast given me some slask for sticking to my job this far in (again I am a slob who went to working stiff back to slob in almsot a month). The joke an everything was abit to far but back to my preveous note I was very tired that night and have not been feeling well and I would have gladly settled on a further susspension or a public apology then to be fired, but again there rules state they have a zero tolerence for crap, but thats no excuse to be a dick. Also jsut as a anothe side note, if you make us work with underwear we will make fun of it, sex exists so why say it doesent? (if u get what iam saying thank you if you dont, shuv off) Hiding the fact of sex is like giving a freshly realeased drug user a job at a cocaine factory and saying he cant have a taste at all and must stay sober, you already know the ending to that story.


[Final Thought]

I fucked up and iam sorry, I do realize I got off by the skin of my teeth by not receaving sexual harassment charges or jail time I am a very lucky person and shouldnt complain, but I still have issues with this and probly will still have them, but until this I will rant in my defense all the way to hell and back again.

also sorry for al the grammar and spelling errors, still to tired to edit this completely. Please comment below and please dont hold back.

"So live
Live long
See her face
In everyone
And turn
Turn the page
Start again
Change your name"

You Cut Her Hair by Tom McRae, a beutiful but dark song about a old man living with the sin of killing a woman, I heard somewhere that Tom was influenced by a picture of a Jewish girl in a Holocaust camp.
Here is the [link] hope you like it!



Other then the song I chose its been a good... month or time span since my last post, or whatever. In any case the only good news I have is that I finaly got my deploma after waiting for maybe like idk sence last month or somthing for them to have three people sign it out of the four signatures, althougth given the fact that the last days of school was like... two days ago and the amount of like over 500 sum highschool deplomas being given out now is like stagering, then maybe I forgive them alittle bit, maybe.

RANTS!!!!!

Avatar Casting and Director: OMG!!! The animated movie for avatars ending was superb in its self and finished the series awesomely but left Toph hangin in the wind, but other then that awesome, now that M. Nightshammylamba (yes iam making fun of his name iam pissed damnit!!) is making a "Live Action Movie" of Avatar, now at first I have no problem with the casting until I saw that Nicola Peltz was casted as kickass Kitara, the reason being and you guessed it right her skin, yes iam being a bit semi-raceist about it but damnit Avatar had people of diffrent nationalities (I think I misspelled that) and skin color, now if she gets her self tanned abit and browns up her alot I may be satisfied as a Katara fan, also the kid I saw as Ang looked hilarius with the staff, rofl but the kid playing Zuko is spot on, YEY

Champiosn Online Release Date: Okay I love NCsoft for maing CoX and I love them even more for making a PC/Xbox MMO about Supers, but what I dont like is messing with the release date, now iam for a quality game with an exact release date which I love, but when the people behind it suddenly decided that more fine tuneing is needed and push it back two frigin months, thats when iam ranting on the internet about my anger, but I do commend them for atleast taking the time to making a quality game... A-holes.

Music License Companies: Let me ask you this have you ever seen the music video of Otherside by The Red Hot Chilli Peppers on YouTube? Now you are probly thinking about searching for it on youTube but let me save you the trouble... ITS NOT THERE, yea trust me Ive searched and iam pissed, the only reason its not there is cause of some damn lisence aggrement about the song and it will never show up on YouTube again, infact the only place I could find it was the MTV site (damn hippocrits(Lawlz misspelled again)), now on YouTube you van see the Californication MV but not Otherside, wow contradictions up the wazzu.



Reviews!!

Eden of the East: With a slight hint of Ghost in the Shell with a tad bit of hilarius hijinxs, EotE has become an anime all should see, also whats weird enough is that its OP is from a band I actually know, lol cool! The anime is connected to a real live issue in todays Japan that is called NEETs (look it up if you dont know cause I cant really explain it, also I dont mean any disrespect i am just a stupid American), the main characters is a guy who lost his memories and cloths and woman who trys to make a wish at the fountain infront of the White House, hijinx insue and hints to the main guys past are revealed. Currently at its 7th episode the anime is going strong with alot of question and few answers, abit like Lost but lets hope these answers come in a timely manner.
I give Eden of the East a 5 out of 5

Fallout 3 Broken Steel: Level caps raised and new weapons given, Broken Steel takes my money and my the last few weeks of my life. When I recently got into Fallout 3 I had not heard about the third dlc till probly a few days from my B-Day, but after some patiance and some well earned cash (a whole of 20 bucks) I was able to gorge myself on an Enclave/Brotherhood of Steel Orgy... yes I said Orgy, some glitches fixed here and there but some still inplace and new ones rizen up it was overall a great DLC and I recomend anyone who purchased Fallout 3 to make Broken Steel a must aswell, also I just relized that strangely Fallout 3 resembles Warhammer 40,000 is a weird but cool way... yay!
I give Broken Steel a 4 out of 5

"Kick the dust Im moving on
Dont care where Im coming from

Windmill keep on turning
As my life goes burning away
Burning away
Windmill keep on turning
Keep turning
Keep turning away"

Windmill by David Choi
Check out this song and more at...
[link]

To be perfectly honest I was srsly excited to be posting more pics from my latest adventures in CoX but havent been able to due to computer and human error (the sickness kind of error, like flue or a virues... idk) anyways that should change soon, in any case I have been spurred by a rumor that Warhammer 40k is going to turned into a MMO, yey! After reading my OC backstories and doing a paper on one of them for my LAST english class I decided I may post a draft of it on Deviant, only problem is finding a blank cd... hmm.

Reviews! (X-play rating)

Gundam 00: Omg I luve u Lockon, both of u! Not in a gay way but a more amnly way, w/e moving on. The show hits a home round as they main issue of the entire show (I presume correct me if iam wrong) is about humanity and there ignorance to there own existence, in any case if u loved Gundam before or like big mech battles u will love this, for the drama queens/kinds this show has alot of it so enjoy!
I give Gundam 00 a 5 outta 5!

Knowing: Ahh Nich, we miss you, well I did! The movie does a fine job of scarring you about the future and precognition, the parts with destruction are well done but I wish I could have seen it in better quality due to the site I watched it on (Iam cheap so sue me), the ending is fair but kinda WTF, so all in all it was decent, good for if your bored.
I give Knowing a 3 outta 5

Fallout 3: Lol its raining blood in the Washington. Fallout 3 is a great game if you love extensive RPGs with huge landscapes and intreging story. Like most RPGs you are given a wide array of how you want to play, you can be stealthy or go postal and turn the patomic red, srsly there is no shortage of blood,
Chainsaw Dagger + Dead Body = Mez Doctur! There are some glitches here and there but nothing to bad, I did wish there was more weapons to scounge for but I will have to wait till I get the expansions before I wine about that.
I give Fallout 3 a 4 1/2 out of 5





Comment below damnit! I feel lonely, promise ill reply!

"I dealt with this years ago, I toke a hammer to every Momento and image on image like beads on a rosery, pull through my head as the music takes over me, and sick in her I can work till I break, but I love the bones of you that I will never escape" - Bones of You by Elbow

Good Song check them out on the TUBE! Bazing baby!


Any ways I am coming back, with some new pics from CoX and some inticing stories, I may be doing some Review-ish things on some games and movies (not sure if it will happen but stay ed too to find out). This will all happen within a week or so, if I am not back by then, well procede on as if I dident exist, I may turn up somwhere, maybe a island, with a guitar, and maybe with the coffin with Lock and some nice shoes, idk maybe.

Chow!

Holy christ! Man its been one hell of a year, turned 18, sister getting divorced, parents getting divorced (finaly), and now iam in Oaklahoma with my mom for the REST OF THE MONTH, yippe!! That means Dsl up the wazoo, and that means 24 hr PvPing and downloading, and even watching some of my fav videos and even finding new one, WHA HOO!

Probly some of you have notcied that I have Fantasy Writer in my titel thing above, well it strue, although I dont write much now sence my computer's hard drive got corrupted and I lost a story I was working for 3 years, which I was about to come to a climatic end. BUT!! my comp shit kicks me in the @ss and now iam without a back story, character sheets, character notes, local notes, and even my entire gallery of pics I had stored away was gone, thats like a frigin crap load of MY STUFF GONE!

Oh well atleast I have WoW. Till again, may you all have great adventures on the trip we call... Life.